Betty: By continuing to judge, you’re continuing to work up your anger. That’s your decision. You won’t get out of it, unless you make a new decision. You have to leave the judgments up to the Lord. You have to give yourself. And the giving is to give up what pushes you into the anger and rage when you can’t do anything about it. What good is judging when you can’t do anything about it?
AM: I’ve been doing journaling, but more keeps coming up. I get thru one layer, and then it’s something else. X said…
Betty: Didn’t you just pray to let go of this need to judge that continues to create more anger, which you can’t do a darn thing about. Yet, you’re continuing to judge, and that just creates more anger. You really have to make a decision.
AM: It’s hard. My anger and judgment is up.
Betty: Take a look at it. Are you achieving anything with this anger? Well, then why get yourself all worked up with it?
AM: I don’t know how to get rid of it.
Betty: The very thing you’re accusing X of, of being stubborn and stuck in his place, aren’t you stubborn and stuck in your place? You’re arguing back to justify. So, you made a choice and a choice that’s only aggravating you and going to cause more aggravation. But there’s not a darn thing I can do to help you, if that’s your choice. Do you want to stay stuck, or do you want to get out of this? Then make the proper decisions, and move out of it. Ask the Lord to clean out all the rage you’re carrying around.
You can keep the judgments, and then you’ll keep the anger. Or you go to the Lord, and you lift it up. You put it in Jesus’ hands. Ask Him to work His way, and you back off. But, it does require mortification. It means you don’t keep going back and stirring it up. Look at what you’re sacrificing, if you don’t make a decision. You are sacrificing peace, and the result is you’ll look angrier, and be less able to attract people to yourself to help them. So, I can see where the enemy has a lot to gain from you choosing the angry state. You prefer to tell the Lord how you’re not like the rest of men. But He’s not going to listen. Because remember the Pharisee that wanted to thank God that he was not like the others? That Pharisee was very arrogant and looking ridiculous thanking God he was not like the rest of men. He went on describing how repulsive other men were in case God would forget. I can imagine when God gets people like that. It’s like, “Who needs it?” Turn to the Lord and say, “Lord, forgive me for any of the justifications I’m using to stay hooked into it.“
Ask the Lord to clean out any rage you’re carrying around.